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Tuesday, August 19, 2008 Y 8:43 AM

19 Aug 2008 :

Yesterday night , dar told me about his thoughts and it was obvious he wanted a break up. His reasons were to concentrate on his exams and he said he isn't good enough for me. I hate that. Why does the break up reason have to be that .. why do my ex-es always say the same thing .. ' I'm not good enough for u ' .. zzzz .. Is that the reason just because you wanted to leave .. He says he needs time to think it over , but from my point of view , we were close to breaking up. I feel that he will.

I don't want to admit the fact I think he doesn't love me as much. Perhaps he isn't serious.

I'm at a loss. I have no idea what to do. I could see that he doesn't want to overcome those obstacles with me, instead he chooses to avoid. 是我爱错了人了吗？也许我不应该选择他，一开始就不应该。I chose not to listen to the advice of others, I chose to be with him. And now that things turned out like this, I only have my dumb self to blame. I got no idea what to do now. All i know is .. I won't be myself. Perhaps I would stone somewhere in school.

Yesterday, thankfully zip and Amy was on msn with me when these things happened. Shanlyn was worried so she gave me a call to ask what happen and make sure I'm alright despite she has work early next morning. 我很感动，thanks for all these you've done ever since I know you. You'll always be my true friend.

SHAN! Zip also had to work next morning but he chatted with me, thanks (: . Amy on the other hand offered advices and help. 谢谢！你们3个镇的很棒！

I have no idea what to do. I know I said it quite a few times already. Zip said he is interested in me.

Was kinda surprised he said that because i lost touch with him for 2 years. And what shocked me was he was already interested 2 months ago but I'm in an relationship. Hais

I'm confused. I know it's better for me if we break but I still love him. I asked him if I'm important to him yesterday on msn, he said yes. I asked him if he love me, he said yes. But when I asked him he wouldn't want to lose me right, he said I don't know. Hais. I'm suffering in pain right now. What pains me the most isn't because he wanted a break up, but because he didn't even try to overcome obstacles. He's avoiding. That shows how " important" I'm to him doesn't it ?

If he really loves me, things wouldn't be like that. Though I mind the fact he can't send me home every time we go out but I understand it's because of curfew and it's also too late. I didn't blame him. Those sacrifices I made exchanged for so much pain. Perhaps I shouldn't be so dumb again anymore. I should just shut myself from reality. I'm yearning to be in coma, I'll never want to wake. I'm yearning to be dead so I'll never be a burden, I'll never need to endure these pain.

The only one who can make me smile isn't here for me. 我的人生只有两个字，“悲哀”。

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