♥ Be Happy

Friday, July 31, 2009 Y 12:28 AM

31 July 2oo9:

I was actually quite lazy to blog because school has started. I was kind of unhappy initially and hated to go school, because I was in a new class with eleanor only. I missed my old class, I really do. These were new faces I never approached before. I was shy and quiet in nature, this hindered me in making friends with them as compared to the rest.

I was kind of 自毙 perhaps others would think as I sat at corners and kept to myself. I don't know why but that was what happened to me. I felt like I was extra, like I was not needed in class, perhaps because the others were in cliques and I did not know what to talk to Eleanor about. I'm struggling with it.

Sighs, I know I should be more sociable and open up, but it's just DIFFICULT for me. Every time I summon up the courage, persuading myself, I would end up all loss ! RAHHHHS ! Just WTH is wrong with me. I'm just not being myself !

WanRu is really good to me, She told WenJie to take good care of me in class, because she knows about this. I confided in her. I did not expect her to go to such an extent and I thought her listening would be good enough for me. I'm really touched by her actions but I don't know how to express it. I kept quiet and smiled, but I wonder if she knew.

People in class were trying to get to know me, I suppose. But it's kind of weird, that's how I feel. Phyllis is cute and she attracts my attention. She's bubbly and she's just herself. I was kind of surprised when she smiled at me that day. -excited- Today, when it's time for Alternative Drawing at 3pm, our class ended 15 mins earlier and I went to class. When I was outside the class, some of them including Phyllis was there. Jervin, Phyllis, Yuen and WenJie asked me for my name and actually mixed mine and eleanor's up. Haha ! As usual. =P ! But that expression on WenJie's face was funny. Haha.

I'm actually grateful they didn't 排斥 me just because I was too thin, because I felt that it isn't easy to accept me. It's just great knowing people are so friendly and kind to me, unlike in the past and the public that I sometimes wish, I don't see them at all.

我很渴望能增肥，我想变得跟别人一样，我不想有异样的眼光无时无刻的盯着我。那种感觉很难受。我也想变美。

Why, am I different from the rest, Why am I so thin ? Sometimes I really wonder.

Kinda Jealous Shanlyn and Eclair same school ( LaSelle ) .. sobs.. none of them same school as me.

Here are some photos I took :

Ninja Aaron. Haha !

H1N1 Alert ! Please wear mask ! =x

Dolly ( grandma place's doggy ). Cutie yet ferocious!

Errhs.. Patrick Yee did this on Spen's foto. I merely took a pic. :X He put on his head at first.

MEMEME! Wind Effect! Photogenic perhaps? PeiLing says doesn't look like me. T___T

At the fountain outside Suntec. Bunny Bag x3 !

BIG BIG DURIAN!

Pistachio Ice Cream made of Goat Milk at Clarke Quay! Yumms! I finished an ice cream by myself for the first time ! D:

I saw this on the whiteboard at typography's classroom. Reminds me of spencer's nick.

Yours Sincerely,
Ileana

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